it makes me quite mad when i have nothing thoughtful/insightful to write but i really want to anyway. i find it incredibly frustrating, to put it plainly. it's like this pool of creative thought is laying stagnant inside me and i just can't tap into it. even though i really, REALLY want to. dammit.
so apparently there's this new "phenomenon" (hold on to your hats, people) called
"the starbucks effect" that seems to be stirring up some noise. apparently, insane espresso junkies are seriously screwing with the AM rushhour traffic patterns and everyone is flipping out. the article claims that because a large majority of people stop for coffee on their way to work, traffic is becoming increasingly worse and consequently resulting in greater air pollution. it makes me laugh that the company's name has been attached to this problem, to tell you the truth. i mean, starbucks as a corporate entity has infiltrated the culture to the point where people will blame it for any and every thing...good or bad. it's beyond insane at this point. i mean, yes, starbucks is the most well known and arguably the most popular coffee shop chain around. true. however, to singlehandedly blame that particular coffee company for the rise in air pollution? it sounds kinda far-fetched to me. not to mention, silly. maybe there is some truth to it, i don't know. but it just irks me.
on a completely random note, watching a baseball game from a sky box is pretty damn cool. so is beating the crap out of the yankees. oh, and so is brian roberts. he's like this cute, tiny, little super-athlete that i want to fold up and put in my pocket.
look! not only can he run like the wind, but he's also compact! i really like that man. and not just because he chooses hardcore gangsta rap as his introductory at-bat music. i happen to think he will play an integral part in us kicking ass this season.
ugh, i'm wiped out. time to lay down until i absolutely must get up...you know, to eat or go to work or whatever...
plans changed, so i decided to take a walk in an attempt to enjoy the day that shined outside my window. i didn't really know where i was going or how long i'd be gone; i just wanted to get out of my room and feel the sun on my neck...the wind on my face. i grabbed my discman (an older model, that occasionally skips when i hit a rough spot) and my favorite alanis CD and left.
i walked around the neighborhood, briskly and with purpose; i was determined to walk the length of the CD or until i felt i had thoroughly soaked up whatever it was that i needed to soak up--whichever came first. it felt
so good. i must have walked close to 3 miles, passing several dogwalkers and a few children playing on their lawns. i was reminded how simple things make me happiest. my heart pumped in accordance with my long stride and i felt like i was going places (even though i was only walking in a somewhat convoluted circle). i was really filled up and energized afterward. it was honestly the best thing that i did all day and something that was completely unplanned.
every day, i realize i'm changing and that i'm growing up. sometimes that feeling hits me like a lightning bolt and i need to be somewhere where i don't have to be anyone but myself. that, in essence, was what i needed to soak up today i guess.
i just finished listening to this song and was reminded why i love it. i've never been a huge counting crows fan. never disliked or been overly excited about them overall. i do not own any of their albums, but tend to pick them up and mull over buying one every time i'm in a music store. i do hear a lot of intensity and sincerity in adam duritz's voice though, and "colorblind" is no exception to that. i first heard this song in the movie
cruel intentions and went on a mission after seeing it to figure out just what it was called. it was never a radio hit to my knowledge and i think because of it's poetic nature and abstract lyrics, it's not quite as catchy as some of the band's other music. to me, it's more of a poem than a song. i'm guessing adam wrote it like that originally and then found some way to make it singable. it's also a song about a particular feeling rather than a specific incident or tangible idea, and that's why i find it so compelling. it's moody and atmospheric, rather than concrete and immediately understandable. all i know is that it really affects me everytime i hear it and i identify with it, no matter what. here are the lyrics, though it definitely needs to be heard to really appreciate it fully. you need to hear
how it's sung--the pauses, the subtle instrumentation, the emphasis on certain words, etc.
Colorblind, Counting Crows
I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am
Taffy stuck, tongue tied
Stuttered shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am...fine
I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding
I am
colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am...fine
I am.... fine
I am fineThirteen Random Things You Like:
(1) mozzarella sticks. especially the ones at red brick station.
(2) staying up late, knowing i can sleep in the next day.
(3) going to the beach and having no set schedule once i'm there.
(4) going out to eat with friends.
(5) being around someone without having to speak; having them know me based on my facial expressions.
(6) watching a great movie...and then watching the behind-the-scenes on how it was made.
(7) talking about films with someone who understands and doesn't mind my rambling. ;)
(8) going to a live concert and singing all the words to my favorite songs with hundreds/thousands of other people.
(9) skydiving.
(10) laughing those big, belly-aching laughs where you look back on the moment later and STILL laugh at whatever happened.
(11) anticipation. that's half the fun anyway, right?
(12) wandering around book stores. all the fresh, pristine paperbacks really excite me.
(13) looking across the room or across the table at someone and knowing they're thinking *exactly* the same thing i am.
Twelve Movies That You Like:
(1) american beauty
(2) eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
(3) office space
(4) garden state
(5) while you were sleeping
(6) the big lebowski
(7) se7en
(8) adaptation
(9) dumb and dumber
(10) the talented mr. ripley
(11) clueless
(12) empire records
Eleven Good Bands/Artists:
(1) dave matthews band
(2) alanis morissette
(3) matt nathanson
(4) better than ezra
(5) coldplay
(6) beck
(7) moby
(8) jewel (before her last album)
(9) soul coughing
(10) fiona apple
(11) michael jackson (when he was black)
Ten Things About You:
(1) i'm 5'8".
(2) i can't do that star trek thing where you separate your fingers into a "v". believe me, i've tried.
(3) the fingernail on my right middle finger is crooked.
(4) i'm very in-tune with myself emotionally. i pay more attention to how i feel at any given time then what i'm doing, pretty much.
(5) i have never seen star wars and never will.
(6) i like experimenting with makeup. the face is a canvas as far as i'm concerned.
(7) i cry quite frequently. sometimes it's even because i'm happy.
(8) i really want to be a mother.
(9) i love spontaneity, but i cling to consistency.
(10) i think that kissing can be the most fun activity ever.
Nine Good Friends:
(1) mike
(2) john hess
(3) john wise
(4) becky
(5) patrick
(6) stephen
(7) marissa
(8) my mother
(9) my sister
Eight Favorite Foods/Drinks:
(1) mozzarella sticks
(2) cheese steak subs
(3) fettucini alfredo
(4) anything chocolate
(5) soy white mochas
(6) cheese!!!
(7) pie
(8) kaluhua and cremes
Seven Things You Wear Daily:
(1) panties
(2) makeup
(3) clear rubberband in my hair
(4) a bra
(5) earrings
(6) a watch
(7) a purse
Six Things That Annoy You:
(1) blatant hypocritical behavior.
(2) slow turners in front of me while i'm driving.
(3) people who are slaves to their cell phones.
(4) raging liberals.
(5) people who protest things, just for the sake of jumping on a bandwagon.
(6) disorganization, in every facet possible.
Five Things You Touch Everyday:
(1) my hair
(2) my keys
(3) my face
(4) other people, in that casual i-just-brushed-your-hand-as-i-passed-by kind of way.
(5) myself!
Four Shows You Watch:
(1) scrubs
(2) friends reruns
(3) conan o'brien
(4) felicity (now only on dvd, sadly...)
Three Celebrities You Have a Crush On:
(1) matthew mcconaughey
(2) paul rudd
(3) scott foley
Two People You'd Like to Smack:
(1) shelley
(2) paris hilton
One Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With:
(1) he knows who he is. ;)
direct your attention to the album links in the right-hand column. you will notice (if you are of the observant breed) that a new album has been added, called
random snapshots. click on it to see a variety of pictures taken at various times, that really don't fit any where else in particular. because this is a random collection, it will be updated frequently, so check back to see the latest.
peace out. word to your mother.
