October 28, 2005
pop goes the question.

this is my hand.
that is the ring that mike just put on it.
i think according to tradition, this means i'm engaged.

yayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayayay!


October 15, 2005
7 deadly sins survey, stolen from john.

WRATH

1. Who did you last get angry with?:
most likely myself. i do that a lot, which i know is not healthy.

2. What is your weapon of choice?:
this is a dificult one since i'm not accustomed to thinking in such violent terms. i'll say this: i think it's funny when weapons are made from mundane, everyday household items. the idea of bludgeoning someone with a frying pan is comically delicious.

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?:
ask mike. he's the authority on this question. ;)

4. How about of the same sex?
nope, never been in a girl fight. probably never would either...unless the bitch hurt my baby or something...

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?:
my mom? and with her it's more about frustration rather than outright anger.

6. What is your pet peeve?
there are really way too many to name. but i'll give you one: SLOW TURNERS.

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?:
oh, i keep them. personally, i feel it's quite insincere to play the forgiveness card just because people say you should forgive. it's not that i won't ever get over something...it just might take some time. i analyze situations too much for this to be a fast process.

SLOTH

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a while?:
floss.

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?:
maybe 1pm? and i probably felt terrible about it, too. it feels like i wasted the day away...

3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't:
cecilia from starbucks. we haven't hung out since i worked there.

4. What is the last lame excuse you made?:
well, just about 15 minutes ago i caved in and had pizza for dinner, telling myself that since lactose is obviously not the cause of my stomach problems, that i may as well have a little cheese. i don't know this 100% of course, but being almost practically really, really certain is good enough for me. i'll rationalize ANYthing for cheese.

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones?):
absolutely. during my teenage insomniac years, this happened quite frequently. i particularly like the ads regarding stain removal or nifty kitchen appliances.

6. When was the last time you got a good workout in?:
about a week and a half ago. i usually work out 2 times a week and start to feel guilty if i slip a little.

7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?:
i have never in my life hit the snooze button. now how many people can say that?!

GLUTTONY

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
triple grande soy white chocolate mocha from *bucks. would you expect anything less from me?

2. Meat eaters:
i like meat, yes. very much so.

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?:
i must preface this answer by saying that i am a pathetic excuse for an irishman. i am SUCH a lightweight. i think the most i ever drank was 4 smirnoff ices and 3 shots over the span of an entire evening. and then i fell into a juke box.

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?:
what? why? diet? huh?

5. Do you have an issue with your weight?
i don't even own a scale. what do you think?

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?:
sweets all the way. if you are a baked good, you will be eaten. run away.

7. Have you ever looked at a small pet or child and thought, "LUNCH"?:
um, no. this question frightens me.

LUST

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?:
fully naked, 2. is that pathetic?

2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)?:
fully naked, 2. is that pathetic?

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?:
no, can't say that i have.

4. Have you done "it"?:
guilty as charged.

5. What is your favourite body part on a person of your gender of choice?:
i can never decide between hands and shoulders. i love them both.

6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?:
no. but that would be funny.

7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?:
no. only 2 people have seen me naked, remember?

GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own?:
one, but it isn't even activated. i signed up for it to get a discount. my other card is a debit, so it doesn't really count. i'm pretty responsible when it comes to money.

2. What's your guilty pleasure store?:
target. i could live in the store, never leave, and be perfectly content. ask anyone.

3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?:
buy a house. then take the rest of the money and travel.

4. Would you rather be rich or famous?:
rich. i'd never want to give up my anonymity.

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?:
probably for a little while. but i'm sure if it got too boring, i'd settle for something that paid slightly less and made me happier.

6. Have you ever stolen anything?:
boys' hearts! aha!

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
none. my hard drive is really, really small.

PRIDE

1. What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of?:
loved with my whole heart.

2. What's one thing you have done that your parents are most proud of?:
i think my parents are most proud of the fact that i have a strong moral center and haven't ever done anything to make them really mad at me. i've never even been grounded.

3. What's one thing would you like to accomplish in your life?:
i want to be a good mommy.

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?:
no. but considering that i'm rarely in competitive situations, it's hard to say. the only thing that ever gets me going and drives me to win are board games. and we all know that's just sad.

5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?:
yes.

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?:
the one and only time i ever cheated was on a spelling test in third grade. i still remember how horrible i felt afterward and never did it again. my conscience is a killer.

7. What did you do today that you're proud of?:
nothing really. that makes me sad.

ENVY

1. What item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own?:
i'd like to have a house/apartment. everyone but me seems to have one of the two.

2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?:
i've never watched "trading spaces" and i don't intend to. this question is null and void.

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?:
i feel like i would have to know every little intimate detail about someone before i'd ever want to be them. and that kind of thing could take a really long time. so i don't have an answer.

4. Have you ever been cheated on?:
i might have been. it was one of those shady, long-distance relationship type situations.

5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?:
of course. i sometimes wish i had a smaller nose.

6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?:
the ability to relax and trust in the natural flow of the universe. i know that sounds like a total hippy answer, but you know the kind i'm referring to. those people that are just so laid back and stress-free that you know they're really enjoying life in the moment.

7. Finally, what is your favourite deadly sin?:
oh, gluttony by far. food is too wonderful to be sinful.


October 13, 2005
i hate my guts.

what a complete and utter waste of a day off. and to think, i was really looking forward to my first official school holiday.

besides the crappy rain that has been plaguing the baltimore region for the past week and a half, i had a doctor's appointment this morning. my stomach has been bothering me for months now; i think it's the disappointing return of my IBS or possibly something stress related. my doctor, however, wants to rule out any allergy possibilities, so therefore i have to eliminate certain foods from my diet over the next 2 weeks and see what happens. both of us are doubtful this is the cause of my stomach complaints, which begs the question, "why can't i just take medicine NOW and get better?", but i have to atleast try and see. it's just making me unbelievably frustrated because gluten (one of the possible allergens) is in everything. pasta, most types of bread, cereal, and pizza. i also have to cut out dairy temporarily, so there goes my daily doses of yogurt, milk, cheese, and most baked goods. i'm at a loss. i'm just going to have to do my best and deal with the stomach pains if they are still persistant. he did give me some medicine to take if i'm really miserable, but i'm supposed to try and ride it out. which sucks.

the only semi-productive thing i did today was sew the collar on my halloween costume. mike and i are going to a party tomorrow as popeye and olive oil. once again, our costumes are homemade (to the best of our abilities) and from what i gather, we'll look good together. pictures to follow...

something better perk me up this weekend. the sun better come out sometime. i miss you, sun! i can't rememeber the last time i saw you!


October 03, 2005
"from here you can almost see the sea..."

i don't know why i'm usually sad on mondays. i wake up, not-so-ready to face the upcoming day (let alone the long week) and my true persona doesn't really surface until after noon. i'm fairly sluggish, though not noticeably dragging my body. my mind is still peeling itself off the events of the weekend and it's back to the daily grind. i like my job, i guess...i just don't like "going to work". understand?

a friend of the family just passed away yesterday. pat kelly, a former baltimore oriole and minister, lived across the street from us where i grew up in mays chapel. he was an absolutely wonderful man; truly devoted to his family and to his faith. he used to tell me when i was little that i looked like darla from the little rascals. i still think of him whenever i hear about that show. the news of his passing is all over the news since he was a local celebrity at one time, so you may hear of it. his wife and daughter are very special to us, so this whole tragedy has really hit hard. plus, the fact that they still live in the same townhouse, in the same community where i spent my most special childhood years, is bittersweet. kind of brings back a lot of memories of growing up there, when my family was all together and it didn't seem like anything would ever change. yeah, it's been an emotional day.

mike and i had a movie fest of sorts this past weekend. in fact, we've been watching a bunch of movies together lately--strings of them in a row--for the past few weekends. he's my favorite movie watching partner of all-time, and not just because he's my boyfriend. he actually thinks about the films and we enjoy or dislike the same things about them. for example, we watched memento a few weeks ago and both of us became absolutely obsessed with it to the point where we not only watched it twice (both backwards and forwards), but we researched it online and hunted down every single special feature hidden in the DVD. we are total dips. but being dippy is cool, so shut up. anyway, this weekend, we went to the bengies drive-in and saw march of the penguins, corpse bride, and charlie and chocolate factory. all were entertaining and worth the $8, but the penguin movie was my favorite, although i didn't expect it would make me cry. i still cannot believe how much it SUCKS to be an emperor penguin in antartica. royally SUCKS cute little penguin ass.

i'm certifiably obsessed with david gray's newest release, "life in slow motion". i've listened to it non-stop, to and from work, every single day for a week. he continues to amaze me with his brilliance and i want to have his babies.

today is my mommy's birthday. happy birthday, mommy!
friday was my daddy's birthday. happy birthday daddy!

hockey season starts this sunday. sooooooooo excited about that...


i am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding, i am... erin. aquarius. less on the fringe, more in the fray. asserting. rocking hidden talents out. clinging to the curves. comically delicious. brainy. fast-talking. full of get-up-and-go. excited by possibility. amused by circumstance. senses scream. knowledge streams. beauty is everywhere. travel beckons. thoughts fly. arms are open...
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